Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Hello, my friend. We meet again.
A few days ago, we went to a party and someone was singing this on the Karaoke. I can't believe how much lyrics can suddenly open an old scar-some sort of well hidden secret... something you wished didn't show on your face.
I thought of the friends I've had when I was 5 or 6. They were the kind of people that followed and led whenever they felt like it, I was the kind of person that just wanted to have fun... and we were just the kind of people that were content with being friends.
But that was then and this is now. Now there's this barrier and limit inside everyone's hearts. It's the fault not of growing up but because of the people that invented 'cool' and 'uncool'. Because of the imaginary pressure of being labeled and brought over to the negative side, people unconsciously push themselves and others to going with the flow, with no intention of being viscous. We just let ourselves get lost in the sea of thoughts and stress and problems of following the movement of the crowds... when not doing so will free us from all our prejudice... from all the pain and hurt we purposely and/or accidentally inflict on one another. In other words, why make our life so hard and depressing when it can be joyous and carefree??
I'm sick and tired of all the hating. I don't want to hate but as if I can make everyone else think that way too, right? Why am I even dreaming of a day, any day, that won't leave me tossing and turning at night because of the regret? How come I can't just be given this one friend that would be happy just to be with me... so we can go back to where we started from-she just following and leading whenever she wants to, me just wanting to have fun... us contented with being with each other-the very best of friends.
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